Today my baby is 5 … the emotions I’m feeling on this day are numerous and almost overwhelming ! There are all the normal time goes by too fast, I can’t believe how much you’ve grown, etc etc etc feelings, but then there are so many other feelings. Like how is it my oldest was the same age Audrey is now when she was born ?? How is it I’ve gone from having a 5yo, 3yo, 2yo, and a newborn, to suddenly having a 5yo, 7yo, 8yo, and 10yo ?! In the short span of 5 years my kids ages have flipped, and suddenly I’ve gone from having 4 babies to having no babies … how does that happen in just 5 years ?! It hit me last night that every five years it’ll flip … ok, I know that probably doesn’t even make sense lol, but I don’t know how else to describe the feeling !!
My life is so different now than it was when she was born … in some ways it’s easier, sure, I have no babies, no diapers, it’s not nearly so hands on, but in some ways it’s harder, much much harder ! Having to deal with the issues that arise with older kids, the attitudes, the emotions, the questions, is mentally exhausting and it terrifies me. I am responsible for shaping how they look at things and react to situations for the rest of their life. I worry every day that I’m screwing them up royally !! Older kids are so much harder to look after than babies, and I just pray they always know that despite how many times I mess up, I love them dearly, more than anything else in the entire world, and that will never change !!
My baby is 5, oh crazy Sue …. what would we do without you? Without your crazy spunk, and your intense independence! Underneath all that wild hair (and crazy attitude to go with it) you are such a sweet, loving girl. Cuddles with your momma are your favourite thing, and you still want me to snuggle with you every night in bed. I can’t find it in myself to say no, so for now, nightly cuddles are our thing. Don’t ever lose that sweet side baby girl 🥰 Daddy and I love you so very much, and can’t wait to see what the next 5 years bring !!
~L
This Glorious Adventure 